Sunday, November 05, 2006

"Are you the love of my lifetime 'Cause there's been times I've had my doubts"

Funny, how people are. I can't blame them. I spent the bulk of the last year waxing and waning on why, how, what the hell was going on in my relationship with Eric. And at the slightest hint of letting him back into my life, I've heard opinions that run the gamut from "WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?!" to "Oh, well, it's your life."


Anyway. The truth is, I'm going to do whatever it is I'm going to do. I know I have a tendency to make declarations and not stick to them, but there's some things you don't get a chance to have again, and Eric is the love of my lifetime. I'm not going to avoid seeing him just because I said I never would again (which was clearly the hurt five-year-old inside me talking).


Plus, nothing has happened yet, just wonderings, just feelings, just knowing that there's certain people in the world who you will always love, no matter what they do to you, because that is the nature of love, especially unconditional love.


Other than that, I've been out a lot, busy with homework, and my brain is full of musings personal and plentiful. Miss you.

3 comments:

stine said...

thanks Deanna. That means a lot to me, especially since you were one of the people who heard a lot of the ranting and raving.

the interesting thing is the second biggest problem we had (the roommate situation) has gotten resolved. Greg and Jill got married and we've both moved out on our own.

anyway, hope you're well in brighton.

Beth said...

See, the problem I had with hanging around my ex was trying not to fall into old habits ie. random making out. It's not like I even wanted to, that's just what I got accustomed to over three years of dating.

Just make sure he doesn't have any girlfriends to send bad vibes your way. :)

stine said...

thanks daddy. I had a feeling you'd be on the excited side. My sense was that you thought Eric was a pretty decent guy, you know, aside from me, on his own merits.

Anyway, nice to see you've signed up with blogger too! Maybe you can start a blog? A memoir of your wild life and times? I would read them all...

love you!