so this is what they mean by closure.

Eric and I went out for lunch today.

It was the most random act, yet it completely made sense. It took very little effort, he asked, I said ok, we met, all in less than twelve hours.

I'm not sure what this means.

However, we got to spend time with another person who knows us better than most people do, in the basking glow of a lovely day, which really feels like the last of these impossibly beautiful glimpses of summer weather. We went to lunch and then walked around the zoo. We stared at animals. Sat on benches. Followed paths.

We did a lot of talking about the relationship we had. Talking to him and listening to him really made me feel better. I hadn't realized how much not knowing where he was in the world, what was on his mind, how he spent his time this summer, even as simple as where he's living now; those things really wore me down. I kind of grouped those thoughts into the frustrations of my life that I may never understand, and tried my best to go back to doing what absolutely had to be done.

I feel a sense of completion between us, about our relationship and how it went. I'm not sure what else I sense. I don't want to make any declarations right now. It was just very good to talk to someone about this terrible time in my life who understood exactly what I was saying because he was a part of it. And it was nice to be able to laugh with this person I thought would never speak to me or look me in the eye again.